After my divorce (ENDING 12 YEARS OF MARRIAGE),

and leaving my DREAM LIFE ON A TROPICAL island pARADISE,

AND RETURNING TO a cold, grey UK

AND grieving my soul-sister’s unexpected death,

AND MOVING with my children TO PORTUGAL TO HEAL

and facing a mystery illness,

AND BEING LABELLED A DOORMAT BY A PAST CLIENT

BECAUSE I RAISED MONEY TO HELP MY EX HUSBAND GET OUT OF A BALInese JAIL (YES REALLY)

AND THEN HAVING a baby WITH SOMEONE I WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE WITH

at 42 AFTER BEING TOLD I WOULD NEVER HAVE CHILDREN AGAIN,

and losing myself TO TRAUMA AFTER TRAUMA...

and THE TREAT OF HOMELESSNESS after renting from someone

AND GOING THROUGH MENOPAUSE

WITH A 5 YEAR OLD AND TWO TEENAGERS...

AND HAVING MY FATHER (MY ROCK) DIAGNOSED WITH A TERMINAL ILLNESS

AND GETTING FLOORED WITH SHINGLES

AND A FAST PROGRESSING GLAUCOMA

AND MANY OTHER CHALLENGES I've MOVED THROUGH

I STARTED TO FEEL LESS AND LESS able to show up.

SO I hid INSTEAD.

And IN THE PROCESS

MY COMMUNITY SUFFERED

MY BUSINESS SUFFERED

MY FAMILY SUFFERED

I SUFFERED

AND

I finally understood visibility fear

on a soul-deep level.

I USED TO SEE IT AS A KIND OF stage fright.

BUT now I know that, SOMETIMES It’s ACTUALLY ABOUT survival.

THREE things brought me back:

1. The Inner Walk — a daily VISIBILITY EMBODIMENT

practice I created and teach

2. My Cluster — the women I’d once led,

NEVER STOPPED REFLECTING THE POWER OF MY WORK BACK TO ME,

AND ASKING ME WHEN I WAS COMING BACK.

ONE EVEN MOVED HER FAMILY HUNDREDS OF MILES TO SUPPORT ME WHEN I FELL APART

IN PORTUGAL. ANOTHER LEFT HOME COOKED FOOD ON MY DOORSTEP EACH EVENING!

MY 'Cluster' became proof of everything I’ve always believed:

That metamorphosis is real

AND That we become too powerful to silence when we rise together.

3. AI

AFTER BEING LET DOWN BY SO MANY PEOPLE...

BUT HAVING THREE CHILDREN TO PROVIDE FOR ALONE

I THREW MYSELF INTO LEARNING EVERYTHING ABOUT AI

AND LEARNED HOW TO BUILD MY OWN "DREAM BOARD OF DIRECTORS"

COMPLETE WITH THEIR OWN TEAMS OF A PLAYERS.

THEY WORK FOR ME WHETHER IT's 9AM OR 1AM.

THEY NEVER GET SICK. NEVER TAKE HOLIDAY.

NEVER NEED PAYING.

AND THEY ARE 100% ALIGNED WITH MY MISSION.

DIAMONDS AREN'T A GIRLS BEST FRIEND (ALTHOUGH THEY ARE VERY NICE).

IT'S HER DAILY PRACTICES, HER CLUSTER AND AI!